I know that I have lost weight. I know that I am healthier. And yet there are times when I look in the mirror and wonder why I look so big, or so lumpy, or so tired, or my hair isn't right, and my face is too red. It seems that this will never change. So I must change how I view myself. This is one realization that I have had recently.
Also, I need to stop this random eating the whole world every few days. I will be marvelous and have wonderful self control for a few days, and then I end up downing a whole bag of Teddy Grahams. Those cute little bears are dangerous!! I know that my little "binges" really aren't that bad. Overall, I am still on track. But I could be so much better on track! For instance, today was an AWESOME day. I ran TWICE. I ran for 30 minutes in the morning, and 15 minutes in the afternoon. And I also did a Pilates Ab Workout. This was a) trying to work off those cute little devilish bears from last night and b) to allow me to have tortellini for dinner! Also c) to just give myself a big push back on track.
Right now, at this moment I am thankful for what I have been given. I am thankful for the last 9 months of getting healthy......wow. Moment please. NINE months. Wow. I am healthier and much better off. And I do see myself as a better person because I can be better for others.
Now, off to finish playing Scrabble with my wonderfully wacky Momma. And then 6:45 am running!
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1. I totally had tortellini last night too. WEIRD!
ReplyDelete2. Body Dysmorphic Disorder is a curse. You could be happy with everything about you but there's always something you just can't fix that you'll hate about yourself. It's not easy to change your outlook on your body but you'll learn. And if you've come this far, imagine what else you're capable of!
3. Keep on rockin :)