Black Dress

I was in need of a dress for many things this coming holiday season. Many performances, and of course, Christmas! So I went shopping. Very pleased with the results. And its a size 8!!!

How utterly vain of me...

Like I usually do at 7 in the morning, I got dressed to go running. This morning, being that it was 60 degrees outside (in November...topic for another time) I wore cloth shorts/t-shirt. I haven't worn this combo since late summer...and usually I wear a really baggy shirt. I accidentally grabbed the "small" t-shirt that I own. I was prepared for the worst. I had gone into the bathroom where the big mirror is and just took a glance at myself. Seriously?? Then I had this thought--if only my old marching band would see this. During practices, we obviously had to wear shorts and t-shirts otherwise you'd completely pass out on the field. I was never comfortable with myself during practice...especially when I was on the podium. My thought this morning was, I wish I could experience a practice looking like THIS! Is it so vain of me to think that I want others to look at me now and think, wow, she looks good? Of course, I'm happy for myself. But the thought of having all of those people who saw me at my worst, constantly, to see me now...

YAY!!!

For the first time in awhile I was home and was able to get an accurate weight.....

drum roll......

146.2!!!!!!!!!!

62 lbs lost!!!!!!

Who's body is this....

Seriously. It can't be mine. There are days when I am absolutely astounded that this is me, that I actually did it! It is only when I consciously address my "new body" that I realize that it is different. If I don't consciously think about it, I assume that I am much wider/thicker than I really am.

Interesting experience. I was in conducting today, in the class conducting a piece. Our instructor had to get me to open up my embrace more and to use my arms differently. It felt so awkward. I was conducting the same way that I had while conducting marching band 3 years ago. Of course, 3 years ago, there was about 50 extra pounds of me! After class, I asked him if the reason I am having trouble is the weight loss. He looked at me and said, "Absolutely!" He says that I am still in the process of re-doing my "body map", understanding how I move in this new frame. He said that after changing your body, your mind doesn't get accustomed to it for awhile. Essentially, I've had the same body proportions for so long, that my brain hasn't let go of that sensation. Such strange concepts!!

New Challenge!

I've been in standstill for awhile--so I needed a new challenge!

I'm doing this with my wonderful roommate. Essentially, we have to go 7 days of "clean" eating. That means different things to each of us and it can change daily depending on if I exercise or not. We each have rewards that we can give ourselves if we do 7 days in a row. However, if one of us trips up, we BOTH have to start all over with a new 7 days. This way, we are dependent on each other to get the rewards. Day 4: so far so good! First reward: $10 at the record exchange. Yay!