Really?

Those posts that I wrote not even a month ago. Really? I'm totally disgusting. I'm losing it! I want to be healthy, and then I ate like a complete pig when I was in NH. I said I was going to run everyday...and ran once and did the easiest C25k. I need to save my life here. End of story. I need to get real about this. It's not about looking great or getting a great guy. It's not about people liking me or wanting to hang out with me. It's not about the size that I get to wear or where I can shop. It's about saving my life. It's about creating a better future for me and my future kids. Do I really want to see my kids go through what I'm going through?